The other Me's

I replied to a post on another blog that I follow for the first time (I am so new to this blogging world). CHRONICLES OF FIBROMYALGIA can be found here and is a must read for anyone who has or who wants to learn and understand what life with fibro is like and the crusade she so passionately runs. I have read other firbo blogs but this one I never miss.I have also tried online support groups yet I find they bring me down more than help. I figured why not blog myself and get it all out that way.
I know that there are many people out there like me who are frustrated, tired, miserable, stressed in every way they can be and did I mention frustrated? I wonder if like me they just want to growl when people just don't get it.
I had to go to my regular doctor yesterday to have paperwork filled out and they just had to weigh me.. My mood has been sour since. I need to loose a good thirty pounds to get back to where I "felt" good weight wise. How did I gain so much weight? Well when one has fibro they treat the symptoms and I have been on so many bad medicines that have caused everything from weight gain to facial hair. I detest steroids and narcotics. I refuse to take either. I do take meds, but only the ones I absolutely need. I have diabetes, neuropathy and high blood pressure and I take cymbalta for depression and pain. The rest is my activity level has been greatly reduced.
Now to get this damn weight off. I need an exercise routine, but routines and I don't go together so well. So I have decided to simply start one and do my best to stick to it on the days I can and on the days I can't, well there is always tomorrow when I might be able to.
Speaking of depression, this is not the cause of my fibro. Many people have the impression that fibro is a psychological illness and this is not true. When  was two years in to having severe symptoms and tired of being told I was depressed (and why wouldn't I be) I decided to have my doctor at the time send me for a complete psychological evaluation and what do you know I passed with flying colors being told that no the cause of what ever I had was not due to depression. Score one winning round for me. This gave me great satisfaction and I still will say NO it is not depression. Depression is not the cause of my fibro, fibro is the cause of my depression. Right now frustration and anger far outweigh any depression I may suffer from. I am frustrated that I can not do the things I would like to (I am still young people) I am angry because I have been fighting a system that doesn't like to recognise my illness as real. Spend a day or two in my shoes and they would change their minds. In filling out the paper work one of the questions was how long would this disability last. I didn't know it went away, it's a chronic illness that means it is here to stay.
I didn't ask for it, I don't want it, so do I feel as if I am being punished for having it?