If I could live where I could hear the waves washing to shore, the boats on the lake, the geese, ducks and kids splashing in the water I would have my bed on a screened in porch (of course it would not get cold and snow in this place). But reality tells me I would probably end up settling for one of those relaxation CDs.

            I have been trying very hard to watch what I eat lately. I want to not only lose 25 pounds of fat but also get my sugar levels down. I totally blew it today when after taking the kids to my dream lake (except it gets cold here) and then to McDonalds to play and have a happy meal I gave in to the mouthwatering temptation of a Big Mac and chocolate shake and decided what the hell and had them throw in the fries. Tomorrow is a new day and I will not give into temptation, but then again I am not going out to eat. It is so much easier when I just stay home and suffer with the boring food I keep so as to not be tempted by the bad stuff.

            Like ice cream. I am a true ice cream lover, the type of ice cream lover that could eat ice cream every day of the year and not get tired of it. That could be the cause of the extra 25 pounds I lug around, though I like to blame medication. Ice cream is my comfort food, my celebration, and my just plain any reason to eat it food and I have had a very hard time giving it up. I figure for each five pounds I loose I can celebrate it with ice cream (and gain back two pounds) but hey it sure is motivational!